Worrying

OK so most of you should know by now my brother has joined the military. Well this week on Friday, Dec 5Th, 2008 he will be going before the general in which he will tell him wither he is fit enough to stay & lead men or he needs to go home. So I started to listen to people around me & at first people kept saying "are you worried"? Others said they were worried for him. But I realized amongst all the emotions of Tyler Graduating on 12/12/08 that we shouldn't worry he wouldn't make it to Graduation. Because if we all worry we are telling God that we don't trust what he has in store for Tyler. I believe that if God wants Tyler to be in the military for the next 8years then he will make a way for him to succeed. If not then Tyler will come home this weekend. If Tyler comes home this weekend then maybe God's purpose was for him to have a change in attitude in which I have been told his attitude has changed for the better.

So what I am getting at is if we worry which all humans do then we are telling God we don't trust his plans for our lives. No I am not saying that I don't ever worry because I do & yes sometimes it's hard for we Christians not to worry. We worry especially because of the way the economy looks but I am sure that if money is tight we could all cut out stuff.

For Ex: Cut back on going out to eat and cook at home. Cut back you 1000 & some channels to 50 or even do without cable trust me I know it want kill you because it didn't kill Tyler and myself for 3 - 4 months. Cut back on Internet I am sure you can find it cheaper or cut it off & go to the library when you need it. We can all find things in our budgets to cut back if you say you can't buy this or you can't pay this bill.

I know I may have been a little to blunt but it's been on my heart for awhile. I have cut back on my Starbucks cups of coffee, my going out to eat everyday for lunch, not going to get a biscuit for breakfast. I can honestly say I have cut my budget some weeks I may have $0.01 to my name but it's OK because I am paying my bills.

Holiday's & Ashley

Ok so sometimes i get a little bored at home on a Saturday morning. So today i happen to stumble upon a blog i think everyone should read it when you get a chance. This blog real touched my heart but also made me remember. No I can't understand where Ashley's family is coming from because I have never been in there situation. But I can also feel for them because if Ashley has to spend the holiday's in the hospital it will be tough. I remember that Christmas day sitting there it didn't even seem like a real christmas watching him lay there not knowing weither he would make it out alive. All, I could do was pray & cry & pray some more. As tears run down my face watching my dad lay there knowing he couldn't talk to me or see me it broke my heart. It's been almost two years without dad & the holiday's arent' the same. But I can't dwell on the past just make a new start. So this year we have decided to spend the holiday's together like old times. My mom, cameron, myself, Tyler & possibly Samantha will be traveling to Alabama for Christmas just like we did when dad was around. So it will be a joy to see family & friends that we know. I do miss my dad but I am 100% sure that Heaven is better then him leaving here on earth in pain. So if you read this today please say a prayer for my mom espically & take a moment to read ashley's blog and pray for her and her family. Thanks.

Picture of Jesus

This picture is worth more than a 1,000 words. I can't even begin to describe what I see. But I thought i would post this picture for everyone to see. Comment back as to what you see when you look at this picture. :)

Tuck Everlasting

Watching the movie "Tuck Everlasting" was good. But there was one quote made by Angus Tuck that stuck with me & made me think.

Angus Tuck: Don't be afraid of death, Winnie. Be afraid of the unlived life.

I think it's such a great quote but there is so much about it that makes me think. I am working on being the chrisitan I need to be no I am not perfect & yes I struggle. But when I think of death it scares me. I know that one day I will be rejoined with my dad in heaven & get to meet Jesus someday but the word DEATH still scares me.

But what scares me the most is the Unlived life because no one but God knows our future. This quote really has crawled up my spine tonight & gave me the chills thinking about it.

Stamp it with JOY

I think in everyday life people such as myself & other's weither it be Christian's or Non-belivers we all are negative in some point of our life. So since doing this new bible study I have realized we can always find something positive about any situation. So I want to challenge beleivers to "Stamp it with Joy." Meaning find something positive about the situation you are in.

God

I can’t get away because I keep running into you.
I close my eyes but all I see is your face.
There is no place I can run because you always find me.
There is no closet big or small that I hide in you still find me.
I jump in my car and drive away and your in my radio.
I go home and I still can’t get away because you’re my family.
You always there everywhere I look.
Your love is everywhere. Every person that hugs me there’s your love.
There is not tree tall enough for me to climb into because you still find me.
I can run far far away and you still never let me down.
No matter what I do, you are there with your arms wide open waiting on me.
If everyone gave up on me tomorrow you’re standing at my front porch waiting on me.
I turn away and you come up behind me and wrap your arms around me and comfort me.
I fall down and you pick me up.
When I need fixing you’re my handy man.
I can walk into work and there you sit at my desk waiting on me to start my day.
When I cry out you are sitting there listening to every word.

Being Thankful

Well I am not sure how many of us complain day in day out. I know I do and can't say that it will ever change. I can try to change but can't make any promises. But I wanted to make a list and encourage everyone who reads my blog to make a list on yours to. I know it doesn't seem fun or whatever but I can go on day after day writing things I am Thankful for that so many people might not have.

1) My Savior & the fact that we can worship him freely in America
2) My ears to hear
3) My mouth to talk (because I do lots of it)
4) My feet to walk
5) My eyes to see
6) My family
7) My Job & Co-workers
8) Paycheck
9) My car
10) My Friends
11) Shoes/Clothes
12) Hair
13) Being able to teach sunday school at church
14) My pastor's
15) Church Family

Now I know this sounds crazy but i really encourage everyone to try and make a list of atleast 10-15 things. I'd like to see how many of you do it.

My Hero

Ok so I would have to say my HERO here on earth would have to be my mom. Sitting on my bed last night I started to realize that My mom is my hero because if you just knew the kind of person she was you would be amazed. To watch her lose everything that meant anything to her besides her kids and still be sane and be the women she is today just makes me in awww.. No i am not saying she is perfect but it all began almost 1 1/2 ago she lost her husband, then her job, and her house. All she had left was her children and hardly ever did she really complain. I mean we are all humans and complain but most of us would have asked God Why many more times then i ever recall her asking. She's grown alot in her faith like i said she isn't perfect but she's growing more and more everyday. So i know it's a short blog but i can't began to explain all the reasons she's my HERO. SHE'S JUST AMAZING THAT'S ALL.

How Many People Agree

Can you tell me who is in this photo?

This is for you Chris & Lindy. LOL.

DAD

As I sat there on that Sunday morning waiting patiently for the men in my life to finish getting ready for church so we could leave and arrive at church for the Christmas Eve Service. I sat in church expecting to come home and celebrate Christmas with mom on that Christmas Eve afternoon. While sitting there all that ran through my head was "I just wished we could hurry up and get home." Then suddenly Dad leaves his seat as Tyler & I sit there and listen to the preacher start to preach. Then I watched Tyler walk away from his seat as I wondered where were they going? All of a sudden I realize my name was on the screen so I stepped away from my seat in a sudden curiosity as to what was going on. I walk out of the double doors to find my family awaiting my arrival to leave the church in a hurry. Not knowing what was going on I made everyone STOP and I just wanted to listen to what was happening why everyone was in weird moods and why all the tears. So my ears heard someone say "Your dad is going to the hospital we need to hurry and leave. You must find a car and go to the hospital." As I stood there crying just wanting Shawn to drive me to the hospital Bill embraced me in his arms hugging me tightly reassuring me it would be ok. We then arrive to find out dad hadn't arrived from being air lifted to the hospital. All I could think about is I want Emily Mann because she always comforts me in a great way but also trying to be strong for the family. Emily and Corey finally arrive to reassure me more just has Emily's dad Bill had earlier. Then Corey had to give me one of his big bear hugs which I must say I love. We start to gather people and in walked Michael Bowers who I love dearly. Michael was always my hero and when he showed up that day I was less stressed just to see him and know he'd be there to help us through this tragedy.


TO BE CONTINUED.............

Crazy Eights

Crazy Eights
Eight things I am passionate about:

1)Christ

2)CHILDREN

3)Family
4)Friends
5)Special needs children

6)Being a Godly woman

7)Being ME

8)Missions



Eight things I say a lot:

1)"I love you"
2"What?"
"Excuse me?"
"Where was I going?"
"Sure."
"What was i just doing?"
"Hurry up I don't have all day."
Eight things I'd like to do before I die
1)Watch my child/ren give his/their life/lives to Christ (can you tell I want kids???)
2)Do Missions in Africa (again)
3)Get married (if God willing)
4)Be able to afford a completely healthy lifestyle (i.e. gym membership, organic diet...)
5) Find my soulemate
6)Give away lots of money to those in need
7) See my sister go to a foreign country to see what the rest of my family has seen
8) Be COMPLETLY Debit Free (even when i get married)
Eight books I've read recently:
I don't read books honestly
Eight Movies I have seen eight times:
1) Sweet Home Alabama
2) P.S. I Love You
3) 27 Dresses
4) A Walk to Remember
5) Remember the Titans
6) It Takes Two
7) New York Minute
8) The Lion King
Eight People I "tag,"'
(i haven't tagged anyone yet.) LOL